Dear Souls May 6,2015
Is my train running on the same time schedule as your train schedule ? If it is you are reading my blog maybe for the first time and maybe you are beginning to schedule your train to connect to my train and say attached for your own reason. Howevery you got here only matters to you . I am just happy you are here with me for as long as you need to be.
Lets begin today’s story : Schedules
Schedules are based on time . If you run on a different speed than me ,you maybe to fast or to slow to listen to me . I speak slow ,I do most things slow because in my lifetime when I drove my train to fast ,I crashed or had a breakdown .I was very lucky at every crash there was help to teach me how to fix my engine again and left me up to continue enjoying the ride as the engineer of my train or a passenger of my own train.Sometimes my train needed service for a length of time so I was lucky a wisdom train invited me to take a ride to learn from those that also were on board to share stories.I was always asked to leave when the engineer knew my train back on track and ready to move forward or backward by my command. As a human engineer, for my own safety and the safety of those aboard my train ,I needed coverage because my train ran 24 hours 365 days a year. It only stopped when I needed fuel and allowed pasengers to board and asked passangers to leave because they were carrying to heavy a load for my train . They would have to find another train that could accommodate their loads. I have to always been able to find responsible engineers These engineers would be paid for required responsibilities from me as a intuitive life coach and energy healer . All of the lucky ones I choice learned fast ,became successful and let go of their pain. They were eager to detach with love from my train and start their own engine going on their train . Anytime their trains were going to be near my Damascus Retreat they knew that now they have to pay a fee to rest at the Damascus Retreat. They remembered from their first intuitive coaching session from me that nothing in life is free .Even family members needed to bring a gift of value that would enhance the Retreats physical appearance for others. There is always some price to pay for accommodations in the reality we created. Food & shelters have to be maintained with some form of labor . Labor cost money or some trade to equal the value they need .
In my life time of giving hand outs ,I drained my resources and buried myself . In my life time when I gave hands up to come aboard my train contracts were made because living a balance life is a ongoing business for me .
I am a Mother,sister,daughter cousin,friend,acquaintance and business woman. I have some form of agreements with all my relationships. I establish first boundaries . I am territorial.Sometimes I do have to make written contracts because hand shakes and hugs do not work. When relationships did not work for my survival,I would detached with Love . My door would always reopened when the relationship would compile to my rules. I learned the hard way that I only own my own load I was willing to carry on my train . I did not own anyone’s else s load . They owned it and they would have to learn how to handle it with their free will.
This past Sunday I met a woman that is a lawyer while I was on my date . She had a deep conversation with my date while I was shopping in a store . When I sate next to my date age 65 and this woman age 52 ,I listened to my date try to be her personal affairs consular . This woman was smart . She told my date to stop telling her what to do about angry ,hated disconnection from her parents .Just because my date felt that giving off the energy of anger brings anger back to that person,he assumes their life is uncomfortable . This could all be true according to one’s beliefs . The point I am making was the woman was just trying to enjoy her day off at the lake and was not looking for any kind consoling for her choices .
After that my date said “I apologize for asking for her contact information ” I said “It does not bother me that we were out on a date and you asked for her phone number and another woman’s phone number because you are just seeking new friends to hang out with by the lake. By spending the day with me on my train ,he was able to meet others and have fun. I was just happy for both of us. His train ride was over after the date . I told him his boundaries before he came aboard . He agreed to the contract . If our trains are on the same schedule ,I might take him aboard for another date in the future .
My marital contract lasted 30 years . Both of us gained value . My heart wall bleeding out from the divorce . Filling the holes to close my heart wall took time. He moved on faster and got remarried 2 years later and resumed his speed with new passengers on his train .
June 18,2015 I will be divorced 6 years . I have had many men coming aboard my train just for a date. My heart wall is healed and closed at this time. My intuitive mind knows that some day somewhere some king will find me and penetrate with love my heart wall. We will be married just like the end of my fairy tale life. My final destination is back home to the source that created me .